new home
dear all,
i’ve created a new blog at http://michelleyyik.blogspot.com/ as a continuance of this friendster blog.
thanks for your concern. & i’m looking forward to read your blogs too. =)
dear all,
i’ve created a new blog at http://michelleyyik.blogspot.com/ as a continuance of this friendster blog.
thanks for your concern. & i’m looking forward to read your blogs too. =)
I really don’t want to be envious
Upon friends’ good results
There must be something lacking in me
Be it effort, luck or intelligence
But I can’t help
Disappointment and self-consoling
Repeated process throughout these three years
I’m exhausted. Totally
“You’ll reap what you sow”
I started to doubt the true meaning of that statement
Somehow, I understand
You’ll never reap if u never sow
And so I’ll never give up
I’ll soon get over the emotions
I managed to overcome the despairs last time and there’s no exception for this time
There must be reasons behind the dissatisfaction
A lesson to be learnt
I know God has arranged the best for me
And I’m truly grateful with what I have
Family, friends and perhaps some little values in me that are still unfound
And ya, I almost forget that my prayer was actually answered
I just prayed to get into the final year
Thank you for the blessings
Perhaps I should pray for maturity
To cope with many aspects of life
I received a wonderful gift from a friend who paid a visit to Guatemala - the Guatemalan worry people. It’s a little pocket with a few little wooden men inside, known as the worry people. It was believed by the Maya Indian of Guatemala that by telling the worry people about our worries and placing them under our pillows at night, the worry people will take our worries away when we are awake in the next morning.
真的就这么简单吗? 我衷心地渴望着.
晚安, 全世界. May all your worries be taken away. Life is too short for being worried, isn’t it? ![]()
心 填满了又腾空
它可以承受多少次这样的循环?
惟 下一次
若非得要重复这样的过程
它一定会走得更潇洒
In the midst of the battle, i found this…
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must - but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twist and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learn,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out,
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow -
You might succeed with another blow.
Often goal is nearer than it seems,
To a faint and faltering man,
Often a struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor’s cup.
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint of the clouds of doubts -
And you can never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems far,
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit -
It’s when things seem worst that you musn’t quit!
- this is a note from a senior who’s always an inspirational care-taker. thanks for everything & i miss you lots, dear sze muen!!
步伐踉跄 心跳仓促
恐惧 如黑夜笼罩
沉重的行囊 比不上内心的重量
天一定不知道 我有多想家
不然 他不会让我独自在富都车站空等三小时
天一定不知道 我有多害怕
不然 我不会遇上那几个眼神不轨的怪老头
被雨淋湿的脸 可以遮掩不争气的泪吧?
为什么轻快铁里的乘客 都只投以看见怪物似的眼光?
啊 冷漠的世界 狼狈的我
我怎么变得如此懦弱了?
翻开过去的记事簿,发现并没实现所设定的目标。耻。然而,自问尽力过,问心无愧。
说真的,我没什么一年之计,也没什么展望。但人啊,总不该重蹈覆辙。所以今年,我只想做个反省,以求更快乐的自己。
人之所以不快乐,原因不外如下:
1.不懂取舍
过去一年,我曾执着于一些人,事,物。所以今年,我过滤了脑子里还记载着的林林总总。那些不开心的因素,我选择 – 放!放下繁琐,也放过自己。
曾经听过这么一句话:人出世时身无一物,身外物包括亲人皆是一种赠与(BONUS)。因此,无论失去什么,或有谁离去,我们并无亏本什么。毕竟,我们出世时,并没带着他(它)们。
人,事,物三者,以人与事较难放下吧。然而,我们总该明白, 没有谁有权留下任何人,更没有人有权剥夺去爱的自由。只要真心还在,纵使遇不到有心人,人总该善待自己,才不会亏待父母,眼泪才不会白流。
难放下的事,往往是无法原谅的事,或无法忘记的回忆。自认没圣人的度量,无法强逼自己宽容,抑或遗忘。所以,我选择把注意力从无法改变的事实上转移,厌恶感自然削减。我不像电脑可以选择性存档记忆,所以,我选择面对过去,纵使是不快的回忆。从经验中学习,痛也得痛得有意义。现实有时让人沮丧,但不至于绝望。
学会拥有,也学会失去。因为疼,所以学会惜。我要学会取舍,并知足感恩。
2.自己所定下的假设
假如考得太烂,我该怎么向讲师解释?该怎么向家人交代?
假如我把头发电直了,脸会不会显得更大?
假如我把定期存款改置信托基金,会否保障更高红利?
。。。。多余且无谓的假设。
“假如”根本没存在。所以,我要学会专著于实际,省下多余的担忧。
3.过分担忧未来
有人说要未雨绸缪,才免后顾之忧。也有人说在最坏的时候抱最大的希望,在最好的时候要有最坏的打算。但我赞同讲师 Datin Mary George 所说的:“There is no future, the future is present”, 为什么要牺牲当下,去担忧未知的未来?未来本来就是用现在堆砌的。
常,想起未来毕业后的低起薪,怎么负担得起债务?怎么改善家境?怎么供父母旅行?。。。便觉无力。谁说律师可赚大钱?除非是自开事务所,否则只换得工作量高而薪金低得可怜。想起成绩并非尽如人意,更一度怀疑自己是否入错行。一波接一波的负面情绪接二连三来袭,我必须将其终止!何必费神费时担忧,那只会扩展我的无助感。我只能努力求学,省吃俭用,有时间时打part-time job。
所以,我要学会活在当下。
4.爱比较,易嫉妒
良性竞争是种推动力,但过分比较只会伤感情,甚至失去自己,去满足世俗的标准。自认自己好胜爱脸,比较别人与自己的努力,不忿自己成绩不如人,自卑自己不貌美如人,羡慕别人受寵于爱人。。。殊不知,努力是不能具体衡量的;成绩也只不过占生命里极小部分;相由心生,心存善念,便自然美丽;要学会自爱,才有资格去爱与被爱。
所以,我需要学会以一颗平常心,去看待世间一切。
当然,我还有许多小毛病如做事拖泥带水,优柔寡断等。但求今年万事顺利,塑立更自信且优秀的自己。加油吧,自己!
不是你(我)不够好;
也不是他(她)比你(我)好;
只是我(你)不喜欢你(我)罢了。
无论如何,
你我都该坚信
你我都会幸福的。
写blog对我来说,是种很好的情绪抒发方式。
但有时却不尽然。
毕竟,有些事始终不便公诸于世。
写blog,变成一种矛盾。
我有许多愿意借耳倾听的好友。
无奈我是个泪腺发达的人,
而我答应过自己,
不再轻易掉泪,
更不用说要泪洒人前。
于是,我用压抑堆砌着勇敢。
我并不坚强,更不是故作坚强。
只是,现实不容许我倒下。
“这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着”
-《你不是真正的快乐》词曲:阿信
惰性 来袭 思绪 松绑
眼神 失焦 大脑 呆缓
功课 一堆 什么 假期
Deadline 靠近 焦虑 堆积
自甘 堕落 谁来 掌掴
自我 挣扎 何以 投靠
牢骚 发酵 借此 逃亡